The Beauty Community | My Experience

Since joining the beauty community in 2011, I've been lucky enough to attend many events and meet many of my fellow beauty lovers. Along the way I have made some amazing friends (Rosi, Ellie, Emily, Sabrina... to name a few), and I have also found myself idolising others.

My first experience meeting a YouTuber who was much bigger than me was at IMATS - remember when that was a fun thing that we all attended. I was stood with some of my friends, and was amazed when 'A' walked over. In my excitement, I smiled at 'A' and was ready to have a conversation, only to be looked at through and completely ignored. After leaving, I felt that it must have just been what 'A' was like in real life, and immediately felt that I would unsubscribe from them - I guess it made me feel completely naive to what I see online.




I had lots of moments after this point, where I would reach out to other beauty YouTubers (some the same size, some bigger and some smaller than me), and I only ever received a handful of replies, although what was obvious was that the bigger YouTubers were least likely to reply.

Then in January 2017 I attended the GoGlam Gala event, which was actually a really lovely event. However, my eyes were to be opened again to the ugly truth of the beauty community. Initially I was pleased as I got to attend this with Rosi, but the events that unfolded really told me that I didn't enjoy this 'community' and that actually it was as far from a 'community' as it could be.

Once we arrived in London, we got to our air B&B and waited outside for a few hours so that we could get in. During that time we went to see Aisling at her air B&B which was a huge house full of other beauty bloggers. When we entered the house, Aisling couldn't have been more welcoming and friendly, however, the rest of the girls all looked up from their phone and looked back down and that was when the welcoming feeling disappeared. Whilst there, we also realised that not being a bigger blogger/youtuber in the bigger air B&B meant that we were left out of a lot of the things that had been arranged for the day - and once 'B' realised this, she couldn't contain her snort at the embarrassment for us.

The plus side of this day is that I did meet Lydia Millen, and she is as lovely in person as she is in her YouTube videos - someone who really deserves success. 'B' wasn't too impressed by Lydia, and continued to make comment on how much Lydia must have charged to be there, and how she can charge so much for events. It absolutely stank of jealousy, and it wasn't pretty.


Many other occasions appeared where bloggers had outrightly admitted to writing a review on products they had been sent but never used, only so that they could obtain the products. I have been completely gobsmacked by some of the things that people have been happy to admit to doing.

Overall, a lot of my experiences with the beauty community haven't been great - and things that I continue to read don't fill me with optimism. However, I'm hoping that sharing my experiences with you will remove the blinkers that might make you think that it is all roses.



I wouldn't ever leave the beauty community completely as it is a passion of mine, but I am very mindful about which events I attend (if any nowadays), and I also remember that what I see online isn't always what you will see in real life.

Sorry for the completely negative post, but it's something I've wanted to share for a long time. I promise to bring back the positive vibes in my next post! xoxo
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DIY Mirror Powder Nails | Sensationail


I'm definitely behind on this craze, which is partly due to me carrying out DIY Gel Nails as I refuse to pay for them at a salon (pretty much like my lack of willingness to pay for a haircut!), but I recently decided to buy the Chrome Powder Nails Gel Nail Polish from Sensationail.

I've spoken about Sensationail before, and my love for them just grows. They do not sponsor my content, nor are they aware that this post is being written. However, when I saw that they had released  the Chrome Powder Gel Nail Polish, I couldn't have been more excited if I tried - I picked it from the shelf so quickly I gave roadrunner a run for the dust he leaves behind.

Obviously, the minute I got this home I wanted it on my nails straight away. If there's something I lack it's patience. Of course, I didn't want to try this without sharing what it was like with my fellow beauty junkies.


Whilst I found it fascinating that the powder could transform into a chrome shiny finish on my nails, I have to admit that I had the powder floating around in my room for a long time afterward - I'm not sure how good it was to be inhaling that. Also, once I had finished it didn't look perfectly finished, and I had tried using varying amounts of my nails in case I had used too much/too little.

From a distance the polish looked amazing, I had comments on it and people couldn't understand that it had come from a powder when I explained. However, I knew deep down that if they were to have a closer look at my nails they would be able to see that it was far from perfect.

Later in the week, it started to peel from my nails leaving the black undercoat showing. I had no easy option of removing all of the chrome powder, or reapplying it without almost having to start from scratch with everything, so I had to put up with less than perfect nails until it was time to remove the standard gel polish from underneath.


My final thoughts are that I would use this again, but only because I have already made the purchase. As an avid lover of Sensationail, I'm slightly disappointed that I didn't fall in love with this product. Perhaps you might be able to suggest a better way to use it, or you have heard of a technique that you think I should try and let you know how I get on. Either way, I'd love your thoughts in the comments!





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New York City | The Bits You Didn't See







If you follow me on Blogger, then I'm pretty certain you follow my YouTube channel, and if so, you would have seen my recent vlog that I uploaded about my recent trip to New York with Jack ... psst, we got engaged!

I feel that the video portrayed what we did very well, but it didn't portray my feelings on the trip, and it didn't show you the everyday bits and pieces - that's why you're now reading this.



The first thing I have to say is, you HAVE to watch a Broadway show whilst you are there. We were lucky enough to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on the first night, and I can't stress enough how good it was! You get caught in the emotions of the characters, you find yourself singing and bopping along to the songs and before you know it, it's over and you are downloading the songs to sing-a-long to in your own time.
[Little tip - if you go to the TKTS stand and buy them on the day that you want to watch a show, you can get the tickets cheaper than if you bought them prior to your trip!]


 There is nothing that can prepare you for the breathtaking views that you are about to take in. Heading to the top of the Empire State Building in the day time was an experience, it's lovely to see New York from a birds eye view and away from the bustling streets, especially considering how much time you actually spend on the group looking up! Equally as beautiful is the view of New York from the top of the Rockefeller Centre, lots of recommendations said to do this at night and it was really worth doing it that way round - it's completely different seeing New York at night, the lights, the buildings, it's an incredible man made city!

Times Square is a huge tourist spot (pretty much the whole of New York is!), and it's constantly busy no matter what time of the day it is. Again, it's an area that is so surreal when you are there, I think CeeLo Green summed this up "Bright Lights and the Big City". No matter what time of the day you go there, it feels like day time because of how bright it is!






The 9/11 Museum and Memorial will emotionally impact you more than you realise. I couldn't understand people taking selfies there, it felt like a mourning site so posing for a selfie seemed so wrong in my eyes. The museum was full of artefacts and new information about the terror attack that I had never heard of, and really showed the immensity of the emotions that must have been about during that time - you will spend a lot of time not talking, and allowing your emotions to roll down your face.





Some of the not so nice reality things to mention; the number of homeless people, this really did knock me for six when I saw this. They are willing to do anything just to gain some food or money from you, one man stood outside a 7/11 all day opening the door for people in the hope that he would gain some money for it. There was a lady who was 69 years old begging for food, and an amputee who was sat on the same spot for the entire duration of our trip. Completely upsetting, and the contrast between the rich and the poor spoke loudly. How can a city with a 'Trump Tower' care so little for those living there?

Everyone is in a rush, you will have to pick up your usual walking pace unless you're used to living in London. If you're not moving at the same pace as them, you're in the way. To cross the streets or Avenues you have to follow their crossing system, which is similar to a button controlled crossing in the UK just without the buttons, and the timing is so precise that they all know exactly what they are doing - but don't worry, you will become one of them during your trip, and you won't even realise.





Overall, I really enjoyed my visit to the Big Apple, and I would definitely recommend you taking the plunge and making your journey over there if you have been thinking about it. I'd like to go back, but hopefully not become unwell this time, just perhaps in a couple of years.

Next stop: Mexico!



Getting engaged to my best friend was one of the highlights of my trips, and means that New York will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart!



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17 Things I Learnt in 2017.


1. Mental Health is SO important.
I've had a few mental health experiences this year, and last year, and I have to say that it is truly awful. Each experience is different for everyone, and just as awful. If you can find a way to get through this, then you will come out so much stronger on the other side, and if you are going through difficulties at the moment make sure you talk to someone, like family or friends, or speak with the following:

Anxiety UK: 08444 775 774 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-5.30pm)
MIND: 0300 123 3393 (Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm)
NoPanic: 0844 967 4848 (daily, 10am-10pm)
Samaritans: 116 123 (free 24-hour helpline)

2. Going to the gym can be fun.
I've been a member of a gym on and off multiple times, but since October 2017 I cannot tell you how much I now enjoy going to the gym. I'm not sure what has caused this change, perhaps now I am just ready to take on the gym, plus the physical differences help to motivate!

3. People can surprise you, even if you have known them for a really long time.
This is so true, Jack (my boyfriend) has shown me so many times that even after 10 years there are still so many traits that he has that I did not know, and these traits are for the better - a true gentleman.

4. Value true friendship.

5. You cannot alter people's opinions.
For better or for worse, you cannot alter someone's opinions to suit your own. Animal cruelty comes to mind when I talk about this - I am so passionately against this that I find it difficult to understand those who ignore it like it doesn't happen.

6. You can achieve what you WANT to achieve.

Achieving something is an amazing feeling, but you will only achieve what you want to achieve - what you put all of the effort into. If you want something badly enough, you will move mountains to make it happen.

7. Be yourself.

8. Change is good.

9. It's ok to not know.
When I was younger I would have thought my 26 year old self would have life figured out, but there are still moments now where I wonder what I'm doing, or where I'm going. Initially this did panic me, but over months I've learnt that this is ok, and that as long as you are happy in that moment then you are living.

10. Experiences over material things.

11. Harry Potter is a classic.

12. Naps are everything.

13. Time can heal.
This links to number 1, there are things that no matter how hard they are, you have to allow time to heal.

14. I love jet-skiing.
Thanks Spain.

15. I love to cook and bake.

16. There's always room to improve.

17. Get the extra storage on your new phone.
Pictures. Say no more.


xoxo
Laura
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New Years Resolutions for 2018


As it's coming to the end of 2017, I wanted to share my goals with you for 2018. These can be small goals, or goals that almost seem unachievable. 

Writing your goals down is a good way to reinforce them, and if you print them off and frame them then you have that daily reminder to look at. Also, how satisfying is it to tick something off?!

So here it goes, my goals for 2018:

1. Attend 2 concerts
I am a massive lover of music, and have not attended enough concerts. In 2018 I hope to tick another two off of my bucket list, Little Mix are up there as one of the ones I want to attend.

2. Move into my own home with Jack
I'm not sure if this counts as cheating, as we have already started discussing this with a financial advisor and looking at properties, but in 2018 I hope to make this a reality.

3. Become Vegan
I have been vegetarian for almost 3 years (February will be my veggieversary), but after watching many videos and multiple instagram stories, I am now convinced that I want to be vegan. I think that this will be a bigger transition than becoming vegetarian, but like a lot of things, it's just a learning process that will get easier as time goes on. In 2018 I will become 100% vegan.

4. Do more for charity
I'm sure that this is something that everybody can do, but I wanted to put it as one of my goals. I try to donate monthly to a charity, and I give money to charities that I walk past when visiting the supermarket. However, I am hoping to be able to go and help out at a cattery - this is a charity that is close to my heart so I want to start here, and then hopefully I can help more.

5. Learn another language
This has been something that I have wanted to achieve for quite some time, I think I find it difficult as I'm not sat in a classroom being taught like back at school. However, I would like to learn French. I studied French when I was at school, but the minute I left I forgot everything that I needed to know.

6. Learn another skill
I've called this skill, but really what I would like to do is learn to play the piano. This, again, is something that I have wanted to achieve for a long time - I definitely think this is going to require a lot of patience!

7. Blog more...
I have no problem with writing blog posts, or even coming up with the ideas! The area that I lack skills, is the photography side. I don't know what picture to take, or how to take it, they all end up looking like the same plain photography that I'm trying to avoid. Perhaps I will take a class to figure this out, or read a lot more blog posts to improve - in turn, this will help me to blog a lot more!


Remember, if you didn't achieve your goals for 2017 there's nothing wrong with carrying them over into 2018. Working towards something positive in your life shouldn't have a strict time limit on it, as long as you are happy.




What are your resolutions for 2018?

xoxo
Laura
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